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Sunday, May 17, 2009

God alone suffices...

An update on the latest with Goober..we are now one week past due date and I actually was really struggling with it and was really frustrated and wondered why God wasn't letting this baby just be born!! =) We had a doc appointment on Friday-- i was only a little more progressed than the previous week...and so we started talking about induction...which I would much rather wait for the baby to arrive naturally...that being said, i really do trust my doctor and his opinion. He is really down the middle when it comes to the decision of being induced, and not into the two extremes of "i'll induct early or i'll let you go forever" He doesn't want me to go go past 41 and half weeks. Another thing that does bring me peace if I do end up having to be induced is that if I don't progress at all, our Doc will not force us into C-section, as long as I and the baby are doing fine. A friend of mine went in yesterday to be induced with the same doc, and are now sending her home, b/c she wasn't progressing. So, that gives me peace knowing that if Goober really isn't ready to come out..Goober won't come out!

We are going in tomorrow for a non-stress test and a bio physical profile, which will check the amniotic fluid, the baby's organ's, movement, etc. Then we will make a decision about induction. My prayer is that I go into labor today or tonight, and then the baby will be born tomorrow (Monday) John Paul 2's birthday!!!! Wouldn't that be great!!! So, i am asking for his intercession all day today!!!! PLEASE JOIN ME!

So, after the appointment on friday i was really just bummed, and took the afternoon off to relax, pray and figure out why i was so frustrated..i had a great afternoon....reading this book called "God Alone Suffices" and God just revealed a lot to me about where I am at, and how selfish I was being in my impatience...and realizing some of my fears with all of this..I realized I wanted this pregnancy to be over, b/c i wanted everything to be ok, and know that the baby is fine and healthy and in my arms...being that this is around the same time that we lost Therese Marie, all my fears were creeping up....God just gave me a lot of peace...and reminded me not to grasp at this child, but to receive it as a gift. Prior to friday afternoon, every morning I would wake up frustrated that I didn't go into labor the night before...now I wake up at peace knowing it will happen when God wants it to.

All that being said...in today's gospel, it said "What ever you ask in My name will be given to you!" Therefore, in my faith and confidence in God, I ask that I go into labor naturally, before induction is necessary. I have faith that God will hear my prayer through the intercession of His Mother, and JP2!

Please keep the prayers coming!

2 comments:

Mrs. Henderson said...

Praying for you, Rach.

I know it must stink, but it will so be worth it!

I guess I need to start asking for a baby in His name...you think that might work?

Love ya!
Jojo

Sarah said...

Any day now Rachael. I can't wait to hear when baby arrives. Prayers are coming your way.